The Cozy Powell Project (Update 9)

Do you ever have a dream so vivid that it actually frightens you?

Had the oddest dream last night about the proposed Cozy documentary...

It started off simple enough - I was watching the doc on my laptop but it clearly was not yet finished as there were some continuity issues. Then it went a little weird... I was distracted for a second and looked away from the screen and when I looked back, a huge part had skipped. I tried to take the video back but it wouldn't let me. It also would not let me see the last 15 or so minutes which were about the accident.

Then I realised I was not actually watching a video but Cozy was showing me what he wanted me to see (still in the dream, of course). He was controlling what I was viewing and that is why the accident was blocked out. Also explained the continuity issues.

What I was seeing was rather interesting though... He showed me a clip of people walking around his childhood bedroom and this was really bothering him. He also showed an image of his parents' home in tatters; the basic shell was standing but the interior had been torn apart. There were people posing in front of the house and this was clearly a symbol of his family being harmed by the intrusion of others (and the symbolism was shown to me in the dream rather than me interpreting it this morning). There was a quick flash of Cozy in a football crowd but this only lasted a few seconds before it all moved on again. There was a photo of Cozy in his garden with some friends that he really wanted to keep private, along with some home movie footage of him being completely relaxed; he showed me quickly and then took the images away again.

Then the videos and images stopped and Cozy pushed me towards his homes in West Berkshire. We briefly visited Boldstart Farm and he made it clear that this was a happy place and that I was free to come back whenever I wanted. But then he wanted me to stay a night at the cottage he was living in at the time of the accident. I went in alone and was immediately met with a feeling of foreboding. There was a dark presence that dominated the whole house. It was strange; the house was empty but I kept being forced to focus on a light-fitting. It was quite an ugly light but it was apparently important. I don't understand the meaning or relevance...

I was met in the house by a woman. She was faceless and very domineering. She was keeping the house empty and this was upsetting Cozy. The house was dirty so I tried to dust and even got a Dyson out but she stopped me from making it presentable. Then we entered a room with a huge stereo (symbolic of his music) and this woman was fighting with everyone over it. She was determined to keep Cozy's name down and anyone that tried to access the house or the stereo was shouted down... And, yes, it is very clear who the woman was supposed to be.

At this point, Cozy met me outside and showed me the surrounding countryside. While we took in the view, he made it clear that he was concerned about his privacy and the country lifestyle and wanted it all to be protected. He did not want the doc to be made because it would show private parts of his life that he did not want to share. He did not want the accident to be discussed at all as he was concerned that Shari would be blamed. Then he left me and I settled in at my own house to watch TV. There was a quick image flash of Cozy waking up in hospital and then the news showed him in a press conference and leaving hospital as he was finally coming home...

He felt very strange to be dealing with things as he felt he was of another time and things had changed too much for him. He was willing to try, though, as long as his privacy was protected...

So then I woke up thinking... umm... what? Throughout the dream, Cozy never spoke and just showed me images and feelings.

Does the dream have any real meaning or am I just projecting my own reservations about the documentary onto others? I still maintain I am open-minded about the doc but I do want Cozy's memory to be protected...